Why Why Why…….Do Bad Things Keep Happening To Me?????
I just don’t get it! Things were going great for so long and then all of a sudden everything started going wrong. It’s been one thing after the other and now tonight just topped everything!!!!
Not only did I get one ticket - but two!!!! I can’t blame one of them on anybody but myself because it’s my fault I didn’t get my plates renewed before today. I put the plate renewal in my glove compartment so I honestly didn’t remember - I tallked it about it last week & was planning on going in there Monday but then out of sight out of mind. So I can’t really be upset about that one because like I already said it’s my fault. And of course it’s going to be an expensive ‘reminder’ lesson! Next year I’ll renew the day I get the renwal form just so I don’t have to go through something like this again.
So the second ticket was for no tailights. The other day I didn’t have any headlights but then today everything was working or so I thought! On the way home from Caleb’s wrestling practice I noticed that I didn’t have any dashboard lights and then the next thing I know I’m being pulled over.
I’m totally stressted out and to be blunt PISSED off! This is ridiculous! I’m sick and tired of every time I turn around something else going wrong. It just makes no sense to me. I’ve been drawing closer to God, tithing faithfully but yet everything is going wrong. WHY?????? God says he won’t give me more than I can handle but I tell ya I can’t handle anything that’s going on right now!
How the heck am I supposed to come up with money to pay two tickets, renew my plates, pay my rent, pay my gas bill, etc, etc?????? If I could go dig a hole and crawl in and never come out I’d do it because that’s what I feel like right now - I’m feeling the lowest/depressed I’ve felt in a really long time and it sucks. To add to the depressed feeling I’m feeling like a big loser right about now. I mean I always struggle financially but this is crazy. I don’t understand how I have been tithing faithfully and then all of a sudden I can’t seem to provide for the basic necessities let alone anything above and beyond that.
I guess I better shut my mouth right now because I don’t have anything positive or nice to say right now so I need to just stop venting and praise God - even though praising Him is the FARTHEST thing from my mind at the moment!!!!!!
Sometimes life just sucks! No if’s and’s or but’s about it - it just does!
