Have you been listening to Mom’s Morning Show at all this week? Carrie Lauth made the suggestion of talking about A Man is not a Financial Plan for one of the weekly themes and this is the week. Seems how it was Carrie’s idea, she has been the ‘host’ for the week and it’s kind of nice to let someone else run the show! LOL

Anyways today’s show was good (well it’s been good all week) and I had an epiphany, at least that’s the word I think I mean…lol. Anyone that knows me, from way back when or has known me long enough that I’ve talked about my past, knows that I used to be a very needy woman. I always felt like I needed a man in my life. Unfortunately I attracted a lot of not so great men and went through emotional and physical abuse to have a roof over mine and Caleb’s head, etc. I put up with a lot just because I thought I would never be able to provide the basic necessities for Caleb and I. That thought process came from being told I would never be able to provide, I would never make it on my own, etc.

As I was sharing on the show today about this, the light bulb went off in my head. Yeah sometimes I feel like I’m drowning trying to keep up with bills and keep a roof over our head but I’m providing for Caleb all on my own. I lost most of my rental assistance and am now paying pretty much all my rent on my own and I used to have food stamps but it’s been almost a year since I’ve had those. So it really is just me keeping a roof over our head, food on the table, etc! The moment I realized that I’ve been doing this on own it was like wow that’s a pretty big accomplishment. It might not seem like it but if you stop and think about it - it really truly is. It’s hard for some families to make it on 2 incomes, I’m doing it on one! And not only that, I’m self employed so I don’t have a ‘guaranteed’ income! Not only have I been a single mom for years now but I’m a single work at home mom. I’ve been working from home for 2 years now…a little over 2 years. WOW! I’d say that’s pretty amazing and to finally realize that, I was like WOW you go girl.

I was also sharing about how some people just don’t get the whole working at home thing and on more than one occasion I’ve had people try to talk me into going back out in the career world and get a ‘real’ J-O-B so that I can have this and have that. Even though sometimes I feel like I’m drowning when it comes to staying on top of everything, I’m still better off working at home than I was when I worked outside the home. Would I eventually like to own a home? Sure. Would I eventually like to have a better car instead of what I have? Yeah obviously! (I mean who wouldn’t want something ‘better’ than a 95 that has 125,000 some odd miles on it where the driver side door leaks and it nickel and dimes you to death? But I’m content with it because it gets me from point A to point B.)

But all these ‘materialistic’ things aren’t what make me happy. It’s the little things like being home every day to get Caleb up (even on his grumpy mornings…LOL), make him breakfast, drive him to school and pick him up from school (now that I’ve pulled him off the bus) every day. To see that smile on his face every day when I pull up (or when he was riding the bus & would come in the door) is priceless. I missed out on so many things in his life when he was younger because of the crazy work hours I had and now that I have the freedom to be my own boss and be here for him, I’d take that over anything else! It’s all these little things that make me happy and smile. Now a days I smile just because, I like to smile, I like to laugh, I like life a lot more now a days than when I used to think life was all about nice cars, name brand clothes, etc. Obviously if I was in a position that I could afford all that stuff, I wouldn’t be complaining but I’m not so I’m content with what I have and thankful for the things I have. It was all about learning to be content with what I have.

Anyways…I could go on and on but I’m rambling now and feel like I’m making no sense what so ever so I better just end it where it is.

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