Night Before School and He’s Not With Me

Twas the night before school…

and all through the house this momma was sad

This is the first time that my son isn’t with me the night before school.

This is the first time that  I won’t be dropping my son off for his first day of school.

I’ve been adjusting to him living with his dad and step mom. Now that we’re in the same town things are a bit easier to deal with but it’s never going to be easy to accept the fact that he doesn’t live with me anymore. And tonight is one of those emotionally bitter moments. I’m so happy that my son has this opportunity to live where he wants. I’m thankful that my son’s dad is such a huge part of our sons life. Some people aren’t that blessed to have such an involved ex. Some men just walk away without a glance. So, I’m thankful this wasn’t the case. But on the other hand my son is starting middle school tomorrow. Middle school is a huge new passage as a kid and I feel like I’m missing out on this exciting new passage for him. I’ll still be involved in school things but it’s just different not being the main parent anymore.

But I just keep reminding myself this is for the best. This is what my son wanted and I’m allowing him to open his wings and enjoy this new journey of living with his dad, step mom and baby brother. He’s an amazing big brother. It just melts my heart when I see him with his brother. He’s so good with him and he wants to be with him all the time so I’m glad he is getting that chance.

So, I just need to get through tonight and tomorrow and start getting into a routine of making sure I’m still involved as much as possible in this exciting time of his life!