Spreading Our Wings …

When my son (he’s 12) first made the decision to move in with his dad, step mom and baby brother it seemed like the end of the school year and moving date was so far away. Now, the end of the school year is quickly approaching and Caleb will be heading an hour away and we’ll both be spreading our wings and taking off … in directions that I don’t know where they’ll take us.

I’ve cried a lot of tears over this and I’m sure there will be even more tears shed. But, once I put aside my feelings and think about everything I’m really excited to be able to have the freedom to spread my wings and fly!

For the last 12 (almost 13) years I’ve been a single mom and that doesn’t give a person a lot of freedom to do things they want to do. There’s so many things I want to do – specifically traveling and spending time on the beach with the ocean all around me! Don’t get me wrong – I wouldn’t have changed the last 12 years for anything. I love Caleb so much and I couldn’t have asked for a better child to be a mom to. Through all the trials and triumphs the last 12 years have been amazing. But, I’m ready to have a little more freedom and a little less parenting responsibility. I’m ready to be the fun parent now! I’m ready to be a part-time parent.

AT 36 I’m starting to realize that I need to start pursuing and doing things that make me happy not what makes everyone else happy. I feel like I’ve let so many things slip through my fingers over the years and there have been so many missed opportunities. Now, I’m ready to finally start living life and not letting it slip past me anymore.

So, all that rambling to say that I’m really excited to see where this journey of my son and I going our “separate” ways is going to take us. Yes, I’ll still be parenting him but on a more relaxed and fun level than I’ve had to do the last 12 years. I’m excited to see him every other weekend and not have to worry about homework battles every night, and to go out and do fun things on the weekends.

So, in a sense I guess this means we are going in different directions. Not in a bad way. I’ll still be a huge part of Caleb’s life just in a more relaxed, laid back, easy going, fun kind of way! Living with his dad, step mom and baby brother is going to be so good for Caleb. He needs to be with his dad. He needs a family atmosphere and I can’t give him either of those…but I’m ok with that.

I’m just excited for this new chapter in my life and to see where I’ll go and what I’ll do in life now … it’s time to spread my wings and soar like an eagle!