Tishia Lee

I didn’t sleep last night. Nothing new you are probably thinking considering my track record with this sleep thing. But I’ve been doing really good about sticking to my new schedule and putting myself to bed at 11pm every night so I have finally started, after all these years, getting some sleep. Last night I had lots on my mind and I couldn’t just ‘flip the switch’ and turn my thoughts off no matter how hard I tried! I found myself still wide awake (staring at the ceiling, the wall or the neon light from my alarm clock depending on which way I was laying) at 2:16am.

I had Seth on my mind, nothing unusual right? It’s been almost 2 weeks with no communication and I know I’ll hear from him as soon as he is able. This is the longest we’ve went without communicating and I’m adjusting to it. I know this is how things have to be and how things will be. And actually I’m doing really good, or I was until last night when I laid there wondering where he was, what he was doing, if he was safe, if he was getting any rest and a gazillion other things.

Anyways the whole point of this post is really nothing other than the fact that I’m tired, I’m feeling under the weather once again (what the heck is up with being sick so frequently????), and I really miss Seth. You’d laugh at me if you saw how much of a crazy woman I am when I hear the ding of Google chat or when I see the little yahoo messenger thing on the bottom of my screen showing that someone else is signing in. My heart races a little faster, I get butterflies in my stomach and then everything goes crashing back to normal as soon as I realize it’s not him messaging me through Google chat (and why would I think it would be now that we’ve ‘upgraded’ our conversations to yahoo messenger…LOL) or that it wasn’t him signing into yahoo.

This morning I spent about 20 minutes going back through some of our emails (yes I save all this stuff!) and just re-read everything. It would take me quite awhile to go through all of them so I only allowed myself a short period of time or else I’d get caught up in that and not focus for the day. Those 20 minutes did me wonders. I smiled, laughed and cried as I sat reading these emails. And I had to read the poem he wrote me too because that always makes me smile! And now I sit here smiling as I type this as the words he always says to me run through my head, “I’ll be ok don’t worry”.

OMG OMG OMG! I totally interrupt your regular scheduled programming to talk about NKOTB! Yes it’s all about New Kids on the Block yet again. Don’t blame it on me, blame it on my friend Heather! No seriously it’s all her fault I just read her blog post about the NKOTB concert on The Today Show on Friday and I had to go back and re-watch it because I missed a VERY VERY important part. So it really is her fault that I’m writing about them again. (thanks Heather for pointing out this important part that I missed!)

So because of her blog post I was so disappointed that I had to go back and re-watch the whole concert to see the part she referenced (thank goodness for my DVR & having it recorded…LOL). Disappointed my rump! I’ll be replaying their concert off and on whenever I get the urge to get my NKOTB fix.

And oh man let me say it was so worth re-watching it. Donnie lifted his shirt and I was like hello! Too bad he was kind of ‘hiding’ in the background when he did it and you didn’t get all that great of a view. Well it was a good view but it could of been better

It’s funny to see them 15 years later - they have certainly aged well and I actually think some of them look a heck of a lot better now than they did way back when. Jordan is still cute but I have to say that I like Donnie a lot more now-a-days which is funny cause back then I didn’t really care all that much for him.  It just must be that ‘bad boy’ way about him that tickles my fancy.

Last night Caleb and I hung out with my grandma & grandpa (dad’s parents) and my Aunt and Uncle for a couple hours. It was nice visiting. Caleb had fun showing them his videos of his wrestling tournaments. All of them are always in Florida for the winter by the time his wrestling season starts so they don’t get to see it. My grandma was freaking out about how rough of a sport it is and she kept telling all of us over and over (this could of also had to do with the Alzheimer’s that is taking it’s toll on her body) how she couldn’t believe that we would watch something so rough and watch Caleb get hurt. I don’t think she understood that Caleb isn’t the one to be concerned about getting hurt - it’s the kids he wrestles that we should be concerned with He’s only been hurt once and that was in his first year of doing it when he wasn’t all that experienced.

When we got home, I got online to check email and say hi to Twitter land and now I’m writing this post and setting it up to publish tomorrow (that’s one of my favorite features about WordPress!). So even though you will be reading this today (Saturday) I’m actually writing it tonight (Friday).

I can’t believe that on a Friday night I even followed my new ‘bedtime’! It was 10:52 when I was writing this post and I had to have it done by 11pm so I could go to bed. I don’t know whether that’s crazy, good, the lack of a social life or the fact that I’m just getting ‘older’ Whatever way you look at it, sleep is a huge thing for me (just the fact that I’ve even been getting any the last couple days is a HUGE thing for me) and it’s certainly helping in many different areas of my life! I only hope that I can keep it up. They say it takes about 28 days to make something a habit so I’ve only got 20 some more days to go and I’ll have this 11pm thing down pat!

I don’t know that I would call this the most exciting Friday night fun but one thing I have noticed as I’ve gotten older is that it’s a lot more important for me to hang out with my ‘elderly’ family members than what it used to be.

I have to say that I’m totally impressed with myself. It’s only been two days but still for me it’s impressive. If you missed my post from the other day, Sleep Really is a Necessity, you missed the fact that I was in bed by 9:20pm the other night and set a new ‘bedtime’ of 11pm for myself.

Last night at 11pm I shut everything down, said good night on Twitter (and had to laugh when I saw Shannon’s response - what? but do you know what time it is? LMAO) and by 11:20pm I was in bed for the night. I must of even fallen right asleep instead of laying awake like I usually do. I didn’t sleep a super peaceful sleep but I did sleep.

I’ve noticed the past two days I’ve felt amazing. The ‘foggy’ brain that I’m always complaining about is gone. I can actually think straight and focus which is obviously a good thing. And even more impressive is the fact that I’ve worked my ‘business hours’ the past two days! Back when I first started my VA business I said I wanted to work 7am-4pm but sad to say in the two years since I’ve been in business, I don’t know that I’ve ever kept those business hours!

The past 2 days have been wonderful! Yesterday, because I was done with all my work by 4:30pm I hung out outside with Caleb for awhile and then my dad called & invited Caleb and I to meet up with him, his girlfriend, her son & my sister Melissa to watch her other son Ryan’s baseball game here in Gaylord. We went and didn’t get home until a little after 9pm and not once did I worry about work that needed to be done because I had it all completed already! It was such a nice feeling to actually sit back, relax, have fun and not even think anything work related once.

It’s 20 after 4 on Friday afternoon and I’m done with my work. I’m getting ready to head outside again to hang out with Caleb. I think we might head out to the park today. It’s nice again even though it’s a little cloudy. I’m gonna grab a book and Caleb can play until his heart is content.

Now this is what working from home is all about! (Too bad it’s taken me 2 years to get my head out of my rump and follow my schedule and get things done according to the schedule!)

For something that should be a simple process - finding and purchasing a sports bra - it sure is turning into a nightmare!

Come on now…I’m not the only woman in the world that plays sports and needs something to support my girls! And I also happen to know that I’m not the only ‘large’ chested woman in the world playing sports in desperate need of something to support those ‘girls’ of mine.

So tell me…why is it so cotton picking stinking hard to find a sports bra?

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