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I can’t believe today I’m 37. 37 years old…wowsers. That means I’m only three years away from 40.

Getting older kind of stinks. I know age is just a number and I certainly don’t feel 37…at least most of the time I don’t.  But there’s definitely lots of times when I do – like when I’m ready for bed by 10pm! lol

I think the reason I always have an issue when another birthday rolls around is because I still remember back to high school when I ‘planned’ out my life. I planned out everything I wanted to achieve by the time I hit 30. And well here I am at 37 and I’m still not living the life I had planned.

For the most part I’m totally ok with not having everything I planned because most of it was superficial stuff like a new car and a nice new big house. What I struggle with is the fact that I had a few things ‘planned’ for life that I had my heart set on and I still want – being a wife and a couple more kids.

It’s hard to have your heart so set on something (being a wife) for so long and still not having it. And I always wanted 3 kids. I love my son more than anything and if I don’t ever have the opportunity to have any more kids (at my age and being single there’s certainly no way I will have 2 more) I’m so thankful and blessed to have him.

I don’t know I guess every year on my birthday it’s always a little emotional to admit I’m getting older and to think about the things that haven’t happened yet. But this year, I’m trying to not spend so much negative energy and time focusing on those things I don’t have and instead spending time thinking about all that I do have and all the blessings in my life because there’s a lot.

So, happy birthday to me and here’s to a wonderful year of being 37! Looking forward to seeing what this year has in store for me…

It was kind of funny the way it happened because lately I haven’t been blogging about much of anything. I was going through this phase where I was feeling like I was in a blogging identity crisis…like I just didn’t know what to do with this blog anymore.

After the “You’re too Old to Blog” comment, I’m really feeling confused about this blog. I guess maybe I’m just not in tune with blogging anymore…who knows? For right now I don’t know what I’m going to do here anymore…if anything!

I’m still adjusting to the kiddo living at his dad and step moms full-time.  I have to admit sometimes it’s nice not having to get up at the crack of dawn to make sure he’s up and getting ready for school. Sometimes it’s nice not having the nightly homework battles that we used to have. And speaking of homework, I definitely do NOT miss middle school math that used to make me feel dumber than a box of rocks because there was stuff I couldn’t figure out But there are definitely times I would gladly go back to all that stuff just to have him with me 24/7.

Anyways…this post is about my son having his first ‘real’ broken heart because of a girl. He’s had a ‘girlfriend’ for a little over a month and they broke up yesterday (Friday). He was really upset about it and I was too. It breaks my heart that my kiddo is hurting and there’s nothing I can do. And it was really frustrating that he wouldn’t tell me what happened. Instead his answer was “mom, you don’t need to know what happened!” But I do…I want to know what happened to cause the breakup that is causing my kiddo heartbreak. I know what heartbreak feels like…Lord do I ever. I’ve had enough broken hearts for a gazillion people. But this time it’s way worse than any I’ve ever had because I can’t fix it for my kiddo.

So…I guess here enters in the beginning of teenage drama and more broken hearts to come. Think I better stock up on some wine

Until next time…

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Today I’m thankful for:

The Troops. As I sat with my family for dinner and then traveled to my dad’s side of the family later on I sent up some prayers for our troops. All these men & women that put their lives in danger every single day to fight for our freedom – I can’t even put into words how selfless that is. I could never do that. And as I sat not only enjoying family time, but good food, it broke my heart to think that these men & women weren’t enjoying their families or good food. So often we take for granted these men & women – it’s time to start thinking about them a lot more often than on a few special days throughout the year. So get out there & do something as simple as adopting a soldier through Soldier’s Angels…it’s almost time for my adopted soldier to come home so I’ll be adopting another one – I’ve now adopted 3. It’s simple to do and it’s the least we can do to show our appreciation to these men & women that are so important in our country’s freedom! God bless each & every one of them.

What are you thankful for?

Today I’m thankful for:

My mom.  She would do anything for anyone. She’s been there to help me out on numerous occasions and I appreciate her and all that she has done for our family.

What are you thankful for?